It
was just too nice a day to spend it cooped up in the office so I rigged up a
quick little workplace, outside, in the shade of my favorite birch tree.
It
was turning out to be a great day of work, with the sunshine lighting up my
desk and the breeze dancing over my keyboard, lovely birdsong playing all morning long from the high, swinging treetops.
And,
best of all, I was just about to close on one sweet-ass deal, putting the final
touches on the big proposal that I’d been brokering for my boss all winter
long.
I
just love the feeling of a good deal going down.
I
love everything about it. I love riding
the ebb and flow of a tight negotiation.
I like catching inside information.
I like wrangling over the details.
I like that pregnant pause in the action, waiting for the final approval,
and I love getting things in writing.
I
love it when they start watering down their demands.
That’s
how I know when to strike.
And
I just love saying the word deal-breaker.
I
took a break around ten o’clock, promising myself this would be my last cup of
coffee for the day, and tried to catch some spring from the office window.
Wabun
the Golden Eagle, Spirit Keeper of the East, was really here…wings spread wide,
aloft in full flight.
I
could see the callery pears already starting to burst with flowers.
There
was also the ginkgo, just about to leaf out, two days after the rise of
spring’s first new moon, just as I’d predicted.
Not
that I’m the kind of guy who says I told you so.
And
I really should catch up with the cherries.
All
in good time, I told myself. Once this
deal goes down, I’ll have all the time in the world for tree-hunting. I was jumping out of my skin…just one final
approval away from the Big Bonanza.
The
forecast?
Nothing
but blue skies ahead, one hundred percent chance of raining money…the longest,
hottest summer ever…Jon Spruce finally living it up in Fat City, nothing but
champagne and caviar, cruising around the city in my Cadillac, lighting my
cigars with hundred dollar bills.
I
got back behind the desk, back on the horn…and that’s when things starting
going downhill.
I’m
not really sure what happened. Surprise
demands, unforeseen commission rates, someone hit reply all and then some schlub in their Accounting Department turned
out to have the ace in the hole.
After one short break, the whole deal went lopsided.
Meanwhile,
I had my boss on the other line demanding the latest update, wondering what was
taking so long.
I
tried to get everybody back in the pool but they all had cold feet. Just like that, they were unavailable or they
were on another call.
And
just like that…no deal, back to square one, back to counting pennies.
From
riches, back to rags.
I
don’t have the heart to summarize all the nitty-gritty details. Rest assured, citybillies, it’s the same old
story.
Heads,
they win. Tails, I lose.
The afternoon would be spent sifting through the dust and the damage. My boss was trying frantically to reach me but, if I was going to survive the aftermath, then I needed to step away from the situation.
Step
away and catch some spring.
According to my contract, I am allowed exactly one hour for lunch. I usually slave right through it, usually spend that hour at my desk, but not today.
To catch a spring…one hour and counting…the magnolia, the cherry, the willow, the ginkgo and that callery pear…running around the city at a breakneck speed…double-parking with the windows down and the folk rock blaring…boiling over with spring fever, mad as a March hare, catching the wind beneath Wabun’s wings…it’s go, go, go…one hour to catch a full season.
Oops. Fifty-eight minutes now.
Turn
on the out-of-office reply…step away, push in the chair…take a message.
Jon Spruce was on a lunch.
SPRING FEVER
Citybillies,
dust off those sunglasses and slap down the visor.
Color
has returned to Philadelphia.
That
dud of a deal was still reeling in my head but, sister, this color sure was
helping to soften the blow.
Pick any block in the city, worm your way into a parking spot and take a gander…
…the
streets are catching fire.
I
wish I could’ve tarried longer.
I
wish I could’ve lingered over each blazing tree and each twinkling flower but time
was ticking away. That short hour was
getting shorter and shorter, only enough time for a hurried photo, a quick
catch, and then off to the next block.
I
don’t trust spring. I don’t trust it at all. It moves too fast, it barely stands still.
Forty
minutes left and counting. Where does
the time go?
Spring? You got to catch it while you can and nothing, and nobody, was going to stop me from catching as much spring as I could.
Not even the old people.
I’m
sorry but it’s true.
There
were old people all over the city that day…struggling to make it down the
street, taking up two parking spaces…standing on the stoops, standing on the
corner or just standing in the way.
How
did they even know it was a beautiful day?
The weathermen only tell us to check on the elderly during blizzards and
hurricanes. I’ve never been asked once
to knock on their door for a spring afternoon.
Well, they must’ve gotten the word somehow.
Running
down the street, I had to carefully weave my way around them. Couldn’t go two blocks without seeing some
old person standing around doing nothing but smiling at the sun or just strolling
through the park or reading a newspaper in the shade.
I
even saw an old couple sitting on a bench eating ice cream.
Who’s
got time for that?
Spring
is a fever, sir. It comes and then it goes. In spring, you read a box score or you eat an
ice cream cone at your own risk.
Not
me. I wasn’t going to miss a thing.
Take the willow.
Here’s
a perfect example.
Look at all those catkins…all those fine filaments…
…you
got maybe one, maybe two days at the most, to catch that soft electricity…and then it
switches off and runs head-first into summer.
I
refuse to lose out on spring…not going to get caught with my hands full of ice
cream and newspapers.
I
raced over to the parks downtown, leaping over the families on their big
blankets, dodging the hipsters practicing their instruments in public, avoiding
the bees and scaring the squirrels.
No
time to sit around, no time to graze.
I see green.
I see green.
Have you ever noticed?
The
way a tree leafs out?
It’s
not like a mammal. It doesn’t enter the
world, head-first, crowning one body part at a time.
It’s not like a reptile or an amphibian either, crawling slowing out of
its wet egg.
A
leaf enters spring fully shaped.
…and
then spends the rest of the growing season growing larger…radially…from the
center and out.
You’re not going to see that loafing around on a blanket, giggling away in the gossamer light.
In
spring, you get no rewards for standing still.
Sure,
it’s going to happen.
Even
during this short lunch, there were times when I just stopped and caught a
breath, caught a picture and caught a whiff of that spring breeze…
…full
of flowers, with just the faintest melody of bees and just the slightest kiss
of honey.
And, about half-way through the lunch, I did a waste a few minutes falling in love.
It
wasn’t my fault.
I
was just minding my own business, walking through a stand of callery pear
outside the old Ritz Theater…
…and
then she walked by…floating like a feather in the middle of a group of tourists, headed over to Independence Hall…bright red lips, big goofy glasses,
the soft breeze blowing her long brown hair in front of her face. She brushed it off her bare shoulders. She was laughing at something her friend had
said. Even her laugh had an accent.
Spring’s
a fever, man.
But I’ll have time to catch love later…you know what I won’t have to time to catch later?
Cherry blossoms.
And I did waste a little bit of time when I ducked into a small convenience store to grab a bag of peanuts, just to munch on something.
Not
everybody else.
Everybody
else was eating away.
Never
seen anything like it. That afternoon,
Philadelphia had a ravenous appetite.
Hey,
you can waste the afternoon if you want, sitting on a bench in the sun
chugging bright green kale smoothies or peeling a bag of clementines, if you're into that kind of thing.
Not me.
Not me.
I
couldn’t believe how many people were doing nothing, wasting a good lunch, just
sitting around eating in the parks…sucking down cantaloupe from Florida or
squeezing Israeli oranges right down their throats.
I
saw this one woman, sitting under a tree, doing nothing but eating grapes…bright
green grapes from California, each one a perfect pearl.
I’ll
stick with my bag of peanuts, thank you very much.
Anything
more and I would’ve missed out on some great color…
…I
would’ve missed out some of the most fleeting monuments of spring…
…all
those big, bad flowers stacked up against the sky…
…or
all those little blossoms…
…all
those lively cobwebs in the center of every flower, snaring sunbeams out of the
palm of my hand.
Spring’s
a show, man, but it’s a caravan.
It’s
a traveling circus.
And I
thought this was a rat-race.
Well,
this is no rat-race, all these people dawdling around with dazed looks on their
faces, this happy parade of dopes and fools.
I
just didn’t trust it. Since when did
Philly get so happy over weather?
But
there it was, right in front of my face and right in my way…people walking down
the street, loosening their ties and throwing their suit jackets over their
shoulders, people taking a break, people meeting other people, promising to be friends forever…
...people
throwing their trash into the trash cans…people having insignificant, silly
conversations, just plain ignorant of the spring show bursting right above
their heads.
Hey,
people, spring comes with a warning label.
What
you see today, tomorrow may be gone.
You
only get one hour out of the working day.
You can’t waste it like this.
You got to be ready at a moment’s notice.
You
got to be ready to jump out and catch it.
Sure, you can lift your feet off the ground, just for a little bit…
Sure, you can lift your feet off the ground, just for a little bit…
…but
you got to keep your eyes on the road.
You
can leave the windows open and you can put it all on hold but you can’t miss it.
Because
before you know it, you’ll be right back where you started.
Can’t
say I didn’t tell you so.
I
returned to a whole mess of emails and voicemails but, before diving back into
it, I checked the ten-day forecast.
Looks
like the temperature will be dropping for the weekend, bookended with a few
days of steady rain.
Yep. And there's Coyote, already gearing up for summer, already up to his old tricks again.
You
know, I’ll trade my time for cash just like every other working Joe out there. I guess that’s okay with me.
But
the next time a spring day dawns, I’m taking it.
That’s
my deal-breaker.
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